Just had my 25th birthday like a week ago. Holy shit time flies by so fast, I remember starting college like yesterday and it has already been 5 years and I still haven't graduaded.
Anyways, back in the days everyone told you that being teenager is hard, they were so wrong! Atleast you could get nice buzz by drinking 3 beers or something.
Maybe I am having growing pains or I am depressed, but I can't say one good thing about adulthood. Yes, I work nine to five and earn decent paycheck, but I when I am supposed to spend that shit? I am working 5 days a week, weekends are for rest and I got annual 5 weeks of vacation. That is like only time you can do something you really want.
Other negative things about adulthood:
- You rarely see your friends, they move to other cities to work/study or find a girlfriend and start a family.
- Playing games 24/7 on your free-time doesn't really do it for you anymore.
- You are trapped in your 9 to 5 job, and after that you are so exhausted that you just want to watch TV and drink couple beers to wind down. Ambition is gone.
- Boredom everywhere. You have seen everything, you have experienced everything, everyday life is just dull and everyday is basically same: work, eat, sleep and repeat.
Am I only one with these thoughts? I would like to have some advice from people older than me, or same age. Honestly I feel last 3 years have been really rough for me. I started abusing opiates 2 years ago to fight the boredom and rat race of my life. Yes it worked, I was happy and motivated again, and fuck it felt good. But I got wake-up call when my old friend of my visited me this summer and I told him what I have been doing these couple years. I understood I was going down the slippery slope and if I don't quit now, I never will.
I have been clean now for 3 weeks, and honestly I feel "normal". Not happy and content though. Just like before I started abusing opiates.I am bored, unmotivated and just feeling like shit.
So question to all of you reading this, what the hell I should do to fix this? Or is this just how life feels when you grow up?
Anyways, back in the days everyone told you that being teenager is hard, they were so wrong! Atleast you could get nice buzz by drinking 3 beers or something.
Maybe I am having growing pains or I am depressed, but I can't say one good thing about adulthood. Yes, I work nine to five and earn decent paycheck, but I when I am supposed to spend that shit? I am working 5 days a week, weekends are for rest and I got annual 5 weeks of vacation. That is like only time you can do something you really want.
Other negative things about adulthood:
- You rarely see your friends, they move to other cities to work/study or find a girlfriend and start a family.
- Playing games 24/7 on your free-time doesn't really do it for you anymore.
- You are trapped in your 9 to 5 job, and after that you are so exhausted that you just want to watch TV and drink couple beers to wind down. Ambition is gone.
- Boredom everywhere. You have seen everything, you have experienced everything, everyday life is just dull and everyday is basically same: work, eat, sleep and repeat.
Am I only one with these thoughts? I would like to have some advice from people older than me, or same age. Honestly I feel last 3 years have been really rough for me. I started abusing opiates 2 years ago to fight the boredom and rat race of my life. Yes it worked, I was happy and motivated again, and fuck it felt good. But I got wake-up call when my old friend of my visited me this summer and I told him what I have been doing these couple years. I understood I was going down the slippery slope and if I don't quit now, I never will.
I have been clean now for 3 weeks, and honestly I feel "normal". Not happy and content though. Just like before I started abusing opiates.I am bored, unmotivated and just feeling like shit.
So question to all of you reading this, what the hell I should do to fix this? Or is this just how life feels when you grow up?